Saturday, December 30, 2006

Spiritual Feelings and such

It's my mom's fault I'm posting this.

Today while we were practicing for tomorrow at the conference center, Craig Jessop was talking about Conference in October. While they were singing "We Thank Thee O God For a Prophet" the audience all stood and gave a standing ovation. Then while we were singing it today when it was time for the congregation to sing with the choir Brother Jessop turned like he was going to direct them and I got goosebumps everywhere. All over my body and I felt so calm and at peace with everything. It's sort of what I've been looking for. It was like my personal revelation to me that President Hinckley is a true prophet. Words can't describe that feeling and I was just over come with that feeling. And tears just came to my eyes. It was an amazing experience.

I'm excited for tonight! Region dance so I'll be out with my friends until like.. late. I don't even know what time I'll be home. And then I have to be downtown again tomorrow at 9 for another rehearsal. Then back home probably around noon only to go back downtown for a rehearsal again at 4 and then a performance at 6. wow!

The closer it gets, the more at peace I'm feeling with singing there. Even though there will be 21,000 people in the building. I'm finally able to be ok with that. Now I'm just excited and I hope I can remember the words to the 4 songs I'm supposed to have memorized..

Should be fun! Woo!

Thursday, December 28, 2006

Mhm.. I don't know

So today was fun. ish.

My friend Megan wanted to get her nails done but she didn't want to go by herself so she asked me to go with her and i did. It's nice to be pampered by those people. The guy (yeah.. guy.. odd huh?) doing my nails was trying to get me to relax my fingers and I was having trouble with it so he asked me if it was my first time holding hands with a boy and that's why I was nervous. It made me giggle. Only now these nails are driving me bonkers! Oh well. I'll survive.

Then Amy and I went to panda express together for lunch. They have yummy food! I'd never eaten there before. Mmm! I loved it. Then we drove up to La Caille to do research for our project for marketing. I thought La Caille was forever away. But seriously, only 15 miles from my house! I was like "Whoa!" And that was pretty fun, even though I had to drive with a snow plow behind me... I pushed the rear view mirror up so I couldn't see it. (I have issues with snow plows...) And I totally made it up the HUGE hill at La Caille without freaking out.

Then we went and met with this guy Eric who was oober cute. And very informative. It was nice.

Then Amy and I came back to my house and watched the 6th sense. That movie is basically scary. bleh.

Then came choir rehearsal to sing with the tab choir on sunday. Yeah.. oober nervous about that. Something to be aired across the whole US and canada? Pretty scary if you ask me... Oh well.. I'll get over it I guess. The songs are gorgeous though. I absolutely love them.

I don't even know if any of that made sense. Oh well..

Saturday, December 23, 2006

Christmas!

Hooray! Today was a good day. Basically everything about it rocked!

First off, I went to ed at like 2 in the morning. Which was great fun.

Then I woke up at like 7 to get ready to go downtown to practice with the seminary choir so we can sing with the tab choir on the 31st. Well let me tell you what's not a good idea.. to go to a choir rehearsal with Craig Jessup as your conductor and have never looked at the music before. That was the worst idea of my lifetime. But it was fun. I love singing and we were in the conference center singing for 3 hours today. Hooray!

Then I came home and took a nap. I love naps. They make me smile.

Then I finally got up and got ready to go to Amy's Christmas party! Hooray! So at 3 I left my house and went to Amy's and we then went to her church and I learned how to dance and lip sync to this song that her family was performing in front of everyone. It was a blast!

And, I totally made a huge mistake in wearing flip flops today. I slipped at leat 4 times and I fell down once. It rocked though. Seriously.

And I love Amy's family! Sure I was a little weirded out when I had to hold that one guys hand that I didn't knwo when we were singing and walking in a circle, but I had so much fun. It was a blast.

And then I got home after 11. So there was really no room for the bad stuff. It was an awesome day.

Merry Christmas to all of you! I hope you have an awesome one and a super happy new year!

I know I'm going to have an awesome time. I'm really excited for tomorrow when we go to midnight mass at the Methodist church. I love that tradition.

And I'm going to bed now.

Good night!

Sunday, December 17, 2006

LONG day

Today has been oober long. Or I guess you could say yesterday since it's past midnight. But whatever. It was long. And not very fun I might add.

To start it all off, my mom woke me up at 8 this morning to go shovel the sidewalks for 4 different people since my neighborhood is full of "more mature" people who can't get out and do it for themselves. So that took until almost 10.. let me tell you how fun it was.. it wasn't. Sure service is good.. But it would have been better to come home to hot chocolate not my mom telling me we had to go shopping.

So then it was off to the mall for me. Do you have any idea how busy a mall is on a Saturday in the middle of December? Well let me tell you.. VERY busy. The lines were like half an hour long and it just wasn't fun. So we finally finished almost all our shopping. I still have like 2 people to buy for but thankfully, I don't have to go to the mall again to finish. I hope anyway. So after we finally left the mall with a HUGE bag of presents that made my arm want to fall off, we went home.

I got to sit at home for approximately 20 minutes before I had to go to work. 12:30 to 7:30. Which was a bundle of joy! I just LOVE being on headset when cars who think their engine should be louder than an airplane come through drive through and basically blow my eardrums up. NOT! And then when they get super upset cuz I asked them to turn their vehicle off so I could take their order and are just mean to me. It's not fun. Why can't people just be courteous? Bleh.

So I finally got home from work and I was exhausted. But I had to help my little brother and sister deliver these twelve days of christmas things that we do for our neighbors. And when I finally got home and decided I was going to go to bed, Ashley called.

So we went to Josh's football game. Josh's team got creamed.. 27 to 14.. Which was better than normal seeing as how tonight was the first touchdown they're gotten all season. Who knew arena football was so different from normal football. I had fun though.

And it's snowing again. So tomorrow morning will be another fun filled morning of shovelling sidewalks. Joy!

Not that today was bad, just long. even though I complained a lot in this post.. I really did have a fun day. Could have been better.. but overall, not bad.

I'm going to bed now though. Because my head hurts so bad I think it might explode.. word of advice.. never slam your head into a doorknob.. cuz those suckers hurt. bad. I promise. Don't test that theory.

Night!

Saturday, December 09, 2006

More family issues

URGH! Why is it that my family has to be so rude?! Today, i went to a baby shower and took one of my very best friends because I couldn't bare to face it alone. And I'm really glad I didn't have to. We got there and shortly thereafter my grandma, my aunt and my cousin arrived. I just got my class ring yesterday (hooray!) and I wanted to show them so I showed my aunt and she told me it was ugly. So I got sort of offended and just turned my back to her to walk away when my aunt and grandma both hit me for doing so. Because my grandma hadn't gotten to see it. My thought was what does it matter anyway it's not like you'll like it. But I didn't say anything I just held it out for her to look at.

So we got to the table that had been set out and we started talking about how my aunt wasn't going to my grandma's house tomorrow to decorate her Christmas tree because she only has 5 seatbelts and 6 people at her house (because my sister got kicked out of her apartment and moved in with my aunt) So I told her just to leave my sister home because she's an oober big scrooge anyway. Then my aunt told me that since my sister was living in her house she was going to like Christmas whether she liked it or not. Which is just an idiotic thought. She can't force someone to like something.

Then the topic of conversation moved on to my sister's getting kicked out of her apartment which happened once three weeks ago (I think that since she got kicked out once she should have been looking for a place to stay anyway as she knew her roommates didn't want her there anymore) but they fixed it that time. So my sister was kicked out on Thursday for supposedly peeing on the couch and having drugs on her. The drugs thing wouldn't surprise me. And if I were her roommate, I'd kick her out for drugs too. Especially since one of her roommates just had a baby.

Anyway, my aunt decided Thursday night that she needed to go up and get my sister because if she didn't my sister would have ended up on the streets. Which isn't true my mom offered to let her come back home. So anyway, My aunt asked me if I'd rather have my sister living on the streets and my response was something like if my sister ended up on the streets it would be her fault because she's the one who chose to move out of our house and live like an adult and was too indignant to let my mom help her or ask anyone for help. So suddenly that makes me ignorant. My aunt kept saying that i was ignorant and that if I ever needed help she wouldn't give it to me because of how I was acting. I'd like to know where in that statement I said that my aunt was doing the wrong thing by helping her. But I told them that I'd never put myself in a situation where I'd need their help like that. Because I won't. I'll never be too prideful to ask my mom for help. Or for that matter move out screaming at my mom that she's the worst mom ever. And then this made me not love my sister? So now I'm being told I'm ignorant and that I just need to love my sister. And then my grandma got involved telling me that I needed to just read my scriptures more and that I needed to remember the prodigal son and what happened and she kept asking me where my charity was. Then she told me it was down the toilet. So now all of a sudden I'm an ignorant uncharitable unloving unfaithful person. Can we all see where this is going? And then all of a sudden I'm acting exactly like my mom (which I don't view as a bad thing I actually think my mom's right in this matter as she offered my sister her room back and my sister said "no! I don't want to move back in with you I want to be on my own!") and I just need to grow up and act my age. So i'm an ignorant uncharitable unloving unfaithful immature person. That's basically where that conversation stopped. And then my grandma asked me if I was going to take my little brother and sister to her house tomorrow to decorate the christmas tree. My first thought was "why so you can yell at me some more and tell me what a horrible person I am?" I told her I needed time to think about it and to talk to my little brother and sister before deciding.

Not only this but they didn't even treat my friend well. She sat next to me the whole time and they barely even acknowleged her. My grandma even had the audacity to interrupt her while I was talking to her as if she weren't even there. And then acted shocked that I actually cared about something going on in my friend's life. And then they tell me I have no friends. Right as my dear friend is sitting right next to me.

I was very very embarrassed for my friend to see this kind of display. And it's not like it was just my aunt and my grandma either. My great aunt glenice and tammy got involved too. And they didn't even know the whole story. No one, not one person stood up for me the whole time. It took all I had not to just break down crying.

So then we're on the way home and my mom called. So I was telling my mom about it and my mom got very upset. She said that she was sick of being treated like the bad guy in this whole situation and resolved to call my aunt. Well I'm sure you can guess how well that worked out.. it didn't. It ended up in my mom screaming at my aunt my aunt screaming back until eventually my aunt just hung up on my mom. So then my mom called my Grandpa. And told him we would not be coming to his house tomorrow because of how my grandma had treated me today. Which will start another fight between my grandparents because My grandpa doesn't think it's any of my grandma's business what's going on and thinks that she just needs to butt out. But apparently if we had all just loved my sister more she wouldn't have ended up a druggy who hated us all and turned her back on every single one of us when she moved out. According to my grandmother anyway.

I thought I did a pretty good job though. I didn't cry until my mom was telling her friend George about it. And even then my mom didn't know I was crying. Which was good. And I didn't let it all out until I got home and started telling my friend Greg about it. Many thanks go out to him for listening to me. And helping me even though he probably didn't know it.

To Jane: I'm sorry you had to see such a horrid display of my family. But I'm glad we decided together tha my future husband can in no way meet or talk to any of my extended family before we're married and he's stuck with me.

There were good parts to my day though. My dad came home from the hospital and I got to talk to a boy I like. Only for a little while though. But it was a good talk.

Bleh. I'm done with this now

Bye!

Sunday, December 03, 2006

Moving Day!

At Chris's house yesterday was awesome! I met his son Cameron and I definately like him. He's a very nice guy. We were moving everything out of Chris's house and we were walking back and forth between outside and inside and Cody and Cameron (wow there were a lot of people with C names yesterday) were having a snowball fight so just casually I said to Cameron he better watch out cuz he never knew when I might just white wash him when he didn't expect it. So I did. Twice. And then we sat and talked for a while in his car and everyone started teasing us and singing the stupid song about sitting in a tree only they changed it to sitting in a car. and It was just dumb. But I had fun. And then I was lifting up this giant table and I got a splinter in my hand so Lee had to cut it out with a knife and I cried cuz I don't like knives or basically anything sharp. bleh! But then I was lifting up this couch and Cameron asked me why I could lift up a couch but I couldn't have a splinter and not cry. He said I was a wuss. I agreed. We really did have fun. Until I laid down to make a snow angel and him lee and steven all kicked snow all over me. But he decided it's his mission in life to teach me how to back cars into driveways. So hopefully I'll see way more of him. It makes me happy. Wahoo!

Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Strep! Whoo!

Bleh! So I got strep. Again. And this time the doctor says I have to get my tonsils taken out. Which I'd totally be ok with if I wasn't terrified of anesthesia.. I've never been put under for any type of surgery. My dad says I won't remember anything and it'll only take like 15 minutes but it still scares me. I guess I'm afraid that once they get me asleep I won't be able to wake up. Oh well though, I guess that's what I get for getting strep 3 times in the past year. and 3 times just about every year since I turned 12.. Hopefully getting my tonsils removed will help a LOT with that though.

At least I get to miss school though? Only "Jane" is pretty upset that I wasn't there yesterday and seeing as how I still don't feel well I probably won't go tomorrow. I'm sorry! I promise to be there next week though.

Bye guys!

Friday, November 24, 2006

Thanksgiving!

Well, Happy late Thanksgiving to everyone! Here's to hoping all of yours were way better than mine. I've decided my family has some serious issues. Anyway though! Onto a better subject

Black Friday?! Did anyone else go shopping? I did. Pure torture! Standing in line at Kohl's to buy one shirt for over an hour was ridiculous! But it was fun. I went with a couple of friends. Then we went and saw Stranger than Fiction. Which was a pretty good movie but I'd never heard of it. It's about the plot of a book I guess. I don't know. It was sort of weird but good. I'm glad we went.

I did decide though that one good thing about black friday is it means people aren't coming into my work! Huzzah! It was practically dead today! It made me happy. But overall today was amazing!

Have a wonderful day all you people reading my blog!

Friday, November 10, 2006

Why are people so dumb some days?

How is it that some people just forget to take their brains with them some places? As some of you probably know already, today I found out some quite disturbing news that has troubled me deeply.
Recently, a church was broken into, vandalized, and set on fire in a town near where I live. I hadn't given it much thought at the time because it's happened before, I figured it was just a stupid hate crime. However, this morning that thought came to slap me right in the face. At 7:05 this morning, I recieved a phone call from my friend who we'll call Jill. This is quite unusual as we generally just talk in person because she lives right across the street. So I knew this was important. I answered and heard news that shocked me. I was apalled. It turns out that one of my very dear friends had done those things to this church that I hold very dear to me.
At first, I was just in a state of shock. I didn't know what to think about what had happened. As I was talking about it to my seminary teacher, a girl in my class asked me what was wrong with me that I would LET my friend do something like this. (To be quite honest I wanted to slap her right across the face but I didn't) As I let myself ponder about what had happened I had a feeling of deep sorrow come across me. So I cried as I was driving between schools. Then I got to school and started talking to Jane. We were talking about what had happened and I began to get very angry. I can't believe that someone I trusted with my life would do something so disrespectful to something I hold so close to my heart. I wonder what he could have possibly been thinking to do something so horrid. The thought of him seriously disgusts me right now. I'll never be able to look at him in the same way again. I don't understand why he would do something like this. And I really want to know. Not only has he ruined the close relationship I had with him but as he is now a legal adult he will be tried as an adult. He faces at least 3 felony charges. Which could turn into 4 because he assisted a minor.
I guess the thing that makes me most angry is the vandalism he placed everywhere. To me, placing an upside down crucifix anywhere is incredibly sacreligious. Not only that but it hurts me to know that he would do something like this after just barely taking this religion as his own because of me.
Is it wrong of me to hate him right now? I'm so upset just thinking about it. I know that Jesus said to forgive.. but I can't right now. Can I be mad now and forgive later?

Thursday, November 09, 2006

Bleh!

So, I made one of these the other day, and now I can't remember for the life of me what I had my user name as, or for that matter, what e-mail address I used to make it. So I can't recover what it was. But I did figure out what the web address was. Not that it really helps me much.

Today my mom had to go into surgery. It was really sucky. I was really really nervous. She had to be at the hospital at 1:30 and come 6:00 I still hadn't heard anything from her. Do you have any idea how nerve wracking that is? She finally called me about 5 minutes ago to let me know she was ok and she was coming home. So now I feel much better.

I really don't have much else to say. So, bye!